So i never post.

UPDATES:
i went to PA to visit friends and family and had a fucking blast. by far my best trip up there yet. i went to the first pre-season steelers game and i almost cried, a few times.. and made lots of good memories with my favorite people in the world. it really is depressing that i am so far away from them all. but nick calls me everyday and it helps. i'm really starting to think that moving back home might be the right decision for me. i haven't made/kept friends in florida and i have lived here since i was 10 or 11.. not friends like i have back home.. with exception of jaimie ashley and britt?? a few others.. i feel like no one really cares here.. maybe it is because lee county is so much bigger than the town i'm from.. people lose tuch easier? i don't know.. the friends that i've lost, i'm not sure what i've done wrong.. and if they don't miss me why was i friends with them? and why do they still matter so much to me? there is much more to it than that but i feel that florida is almost toxic for me... i just don't know how to break it to my father.. he's done everything for me.. i'm left with the question "what do i have here?" the only thing i can come up with is my father.. no one else seems to really care.. no one understands that i'm so focused on graduating that i have little time to hang.. and when i can hang no one wants to.. i feel really lonely and that no one understands.. i've made alot of mistakes in the past 2 years and i feel like i'm haunted by them every day.. and i still hurt so bad.. my brain went hay-wire when kelly died and i'm just now starting to feel ok about her passing now.. i don't feel normal, but i don't feel crazy anymore either.. just really really alone.

wow this post is all over the place..

and no one probaby read the shit..

so i went to upload some pics.. and turns out my life revolves around my boyfriend, my dogs, and taking back sunday.. hmm? anyway, working all summer sucks when its your last summer you'll ever have before REAL life starts.. i graduate in december and i'm definately ready.. sorry i don't remember how to do the cut i'll figure it out again though.. its been a while since i've used lj. but heres my puppies (chocolate and girl) my boyfriend (ricky) and tbs! ha ha the guy with the huge dimples is eddie reyes from tbs.. ok i wanna go watch animal planet now..

i have the internet i have the internet
yayayaya yayayaya i have the internet...
god that was a horrible 4 months..
but i'm bacccckkk bitchhheeesss

weee hooo weee wooo yayayayaya.

i don't get to go online much anymore.

so to update if anyone still
reads. i am working two jobs for
the summer. one is in home care for
the elderly. i go to their house and
help them with whatever they can't do.
the other is working with 6 profoundly
mentally retarded adults. that one is pretty
sweet actually, tiring, but somehow rewarding..

i keep to myself mostly these days between working
and people hating my boyfriend and all.. when i'm
done with work i go home because i want to RELAX,
and my boyfriend is there (we live together)
so my friends don't come by.. awesome..

anyway, to those who post about each other BY NAME
why don't you just fucking call that bitch and tell
her how much you hate her? because i, personally, don't give a shit
and am sick of reading about it and i don't even get on here much.

so yeah. i'm gunna peace out nigggaaaaa.

true friends will
stay thats what i keep telling myself.. i have two jobs but i hate to work,
boyfriend has an interview tomorrow, ours babies are
fine and dandy. happy and healthy. apartment is small
but perfect for me, and my life right now..

i regret the last year of my life.. except for probably
april and may.. i finally got my head on right..

graduation in december.. woop.

so like, i'm single?

this day was fucking weird yo.

and it all started with going to the dentist.

1. a picture of you in your room.

my room in pa.. which is no longer my room anymore..

2. a picture with someone you don't actually like.



nuff said..


3. a picture of you very drunk.



this was taken on accident.. i was bending over to pick up my dropped camera.. this is what happened.. toooo much vodka that night.. yeah that night i walked home and cried myself to sleep.


4. a picture of you on your birthday, or your favorite holiday.


21st

5. the youngest picture you can find of yourself in digital form.
sry couldn't find one

6. a picture of you in one of your favorite outfits.


so comfy.


7. a picture of you making a goofy face at the camera.



8. a picture you miiiiiight have edited to make yourself more attractive.
i don't edit. nor do i know how.


9. a picture of a night you regret...


10.a picture of you truly being yourself


11. the most recent picture of you.


the other night.

12. a picture of you being absolutely ridiculous.



13. a picture of you showing off a new haircut/color.


14. a picture of a time in your life that's over, but you wish it wasn't.



15. a picture of a time in your life that's over, and you couldn't be more thankful that it is.


16. a picture of you when you werent anything but happy...


17. a picture of you that you had no idea was being taken.


18. a picture of you when you were a different person than you are now.


19. a picture of you with someone you love.



20. a picture of how you'd like the world to see you.



21. a picture that describes how you'd like to spend every day.



22. a picture of a time when everything was changing.



23. a picture that makes your heart hurt.



24. a picture that makes your heart smile.



25. A picture of one of the best nights of your life.

i just got a voice mail and it said:

"ashley.. it's alec.. it's yoders birthday today...
and he wanted to see something crazy.. so i attempted
the butt chug.. and it.. it kinda worked and it
kinda didn't it.. and it was kinda crazy.. and
borderline gay but i called no homo before i did
it so so its all canceled out according to black
people cuz... know what i'm sayin? no homo and that
means its not gay like lil wayne says it and stuff..
so... i dunno... takin it to a new level... i attempted
the butt chug... puke... piss.. who knows what will be next..
why do i do these things? i can't explain it in my
own brain.. maybe.. ::cuts off::"


oh my god..
made my day..

my step mom

lover

daddy

go pittsburgh!!

bye bye birdie.